So I am even struggling to type this very sentence.
This iPad is being real shitty these days..
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
I have been wanting to write this post for a long time now. But I've also been procrastinating.
Since the last time I posted, it got cold here in Dubai, Dubai also won Expo 2020. I don't know HOW to react. I don't even know how this will affect me. There were also some nasty revelations about some people in my life, and I got into an accident. Nothing major though. And finally, I had one of the best days of my life in a really long time.
And since I won't be having school till the 4th of January, I have time to tell you ALL ABOUT IT.
But first, the reason why I wasn't here: Studies. They have a way of sucking life out of you. I've been so grumpy this month. A true buzzkill.
I study for fun. Re-read that sentence. I study for fun. When I have nothing to do, I'll just take out my books and start solving any worksheet I can find. This wasn't how it used to be a year ago. A year ago, 14-year old Sam would be catching up on her blog posts, struggling to play the sims, reading, she would be having fun.
I think over the year, I've lost my sense of fun. Pushing it aside because I'm supposed to be studying. I'm doing much better academically this year, but it doesn't seem like I've accomplished much. I've had some good days this year, but if I ever had to look back at 2013 ever, I wouldn't. It's just been a clump of grey. I feel like I've lost myself in this melodrama of life.
Just before school closed down for the vacations, one of my teachers planned a picnic for us. I REALLY did not wanna go. I was quite skeptical about it. But finally, I did go. Only for 3 hours though. The picnic was from 10 AM - 5 PM, and I planned to stay there from 12 PM - 3 PM. But sometime while I was there, I was having fun, and I'd wished I'd come earlier. And when I had to leave at 3-ish. I didn't want to though. That made me realize how I don' usually have fun at all. I don't give myself a break.
Next, THE ACCIDENT: On the Sunday of my final week of school before the winter vacations (15th of December), I was just sitting on the last seat on the bus as usual, studying some math for an upcoming test. The bus was quite full that day, and a few girls were also standing up. The bus was almost reaching school, when I heard one of the girls who was standing up say, 'OH NO.', and another say, 'Wha-', but her sentence was cut short when I saw a red glow, and a glass shattered behind me, while I was being crushed in my seat. Luckily, I wasn't hurt, but I immediately stood up to see another school bus had hit the back of ours, and the glass at the end of my bus was shattered. And according to a source, I had glass all over the back of my sweater.
Now, I was SHOCKED. Completely OVERWHELMED. I wasn't hurt, but I went to the front of the bus where my friend was sitting, and I just started crying. I don't know WHY. It was probably the shock, but I couldn't tell.
Two-ish weeks later...
Belated Happy New Year!
School has begun. It actually began yesterday, but I was busy yesterday. Also, I wanted to post today. Today, I got my Math test paper. And I got a solid 20/20. I was so happy. I was FINALLY gonna get the 3 large Dairy Milk(s) that I wanted. Dairy Milk is a chocolate by the way. One of the best I could say. But this grade is so special to me, because my mom was really happy when she saw it. And so was my dad. My dad is usually appreciative, but seeing my mom this happy was quite nice. It's not like this is the first time I've brought home an A. It's happened before, but this is MATH. This is NUMBERS. I can't comprehend numbers quite easily, even I was surprised. But I felt good.
I don't want to drag this, but I'm gonna end this here.
Until next time.
#NowPlaying: All These Things That I've Done — The Killers
Whatever.
-Sam Frank.
