Today was a waste. And I speak most of my heart out.

I procrastinate like a pro.

And I am disappointed in what I've done today. Which is absolutely nothing. I have barely done anything today. This day was a total waste. I still have a Hindi letter and essay to write, and I still have to finish Murder on the Orient Express. And I didn't even watch the movie. 

It seems like I need a day off atleast one day of the week, and the weekend doesn't count.  And I can never seem to get ANYTHING done on time. Anything at all. I feel like I need a personal trainer in life. Or in school. Well, just in school. My academic life is a pigsty. I have so many dreams, like, go to college, get better at writing, learn Islamic law, do this, do that, learn something new here or there. But I never seem to get off my ass and do it. I expect everything to be in line once I'm in my junior year. But it isn't gonna be. I'm still gonna be a mess. I don't even know if I'm gonna get there. Everyone talks about how hard sophomore year is with our syllabus, and I just think to myself, "What if I don't get there?" I know there's a lot of negativity going on around here, I mean all I can even think about these past few days is my future. But who doesn't? I think what I need in my life is all this negativity. I think this is the only way I can push myself. Sometimes, I just think about how horrid my life is. I never get optimistic about myself. I always think about how bad things are in my life. But I never go out and do..anything. I always pass up on opportunities because I can't grab one. There is ALMOST always some problem which comes between me doing something for myself.

But I guess that's how life is.

I feel a bit better now. 

Getting on other things, I just watched a bit of SNL today and procrastinated like crazy. It's 10 PM now, and I still have work to do. 

I have a plan under my sleeve, but I won't tell you guys till it actually works out.

But it's a good one.
And it will probably take a week to figure out and stuff.

Well, I should get sleeping now. BYE!

And happy anniversary to my home. Well, it's the anniversary of my family living in this apartment, but whatever. I love this place!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.