Gloomy, sleepy day. Blah.

I am sooo bored. 

So yeah, I have been sleeping the whole day. Ughh. My mom told me that Hanan will be back probably tomorrow, so YAAY. I WILL HAVE SOME COMPANY! And one of my friends called me today! I thought she was India. Seems she wasn't. So yeah. I told you guy that I would tel you about some of the moments I had with my cousins. 

Last year for Eid we went to Sir Baniyas Island. It's an Island. It's got an animal sanctuary thing. So yeah. It took us around 4-5 hours to get there. Once we got there, we went to our rooms. Each room could hold 2 people. So, my mom and dad shared one, my Aunt and my uncle in another, Granny and elder sister, me and twin sister and the two brothers. My Brother wasn't there, he was in India. So we went and freshened up and we went for a boat ride to see the sunset. We were having fun on our boat there was a trampoline and we were having fun jumping on it. Suddenly the sky went dark and we couldn't see anything. We got lost. In a sand storm. There was sand flying everywhere into our eyes and our dresses were sandy. And the worst part was it was an open boat. So there was sand everywhere. And my aunt started praying that we don't die and stuff. It was a bit funny. Then the dudes driving the boat scare us more by saying that this has NEVER happened before and we have lost our way. But then after about and HOUR we get back to the island. We freshen up and get ready to sleep. But we weren't exactly ready to sleep. Me and the twin sister went to the brothers room and we listened to music and stuff and when it was about 12:00 we decided it was time to go to sleep. 

^Well that's a huge paragraph. I wonder if Sam ever talked this much. I MISS HER SO MUCH! I'm guessing you guys miss her too. You guys must be pissed about me taking over this thing for a week. Cause she is waaaay more funnier and awesome than me. Yeah. Well I can't wait for Hanan to come tomorrow. 

Everytime I'm bored I watch YouTube. And I love YouTube! All my favorite youtubers are from the UK. I love UK. If you're from UK, then I probably love you. Or not. That's just weird. My favorite youtubers are Marcusbutlertv, Pointlessblog, Jacksgap, GLOOOZEELL, Charlieissocoollike, OMFGitsjackanddean, Sampepper, Danisnotonfire, Amazingphil and many many more. There is this new thing Becoming YouTube. ALL my favorite youtubers are there. It's amazing. Best. Thing. Ever. And I love Benjamin! 

nowadays there are a lot of those couples and they are all "I luv u so mch bby. Mwah. xxxxxxxxxx" It sickens me. Mostly cause I don't have a boyfriend. I have this HUGE crush on a guy but he hardly even knows I exist. I get depressed sometimes because of that. Blah. I'm gonna go now. Cause I don't have anything better to talk about. 

Well this is awkward. 

-Reem. 

Another boring day. Blaaah.

Today was so boring that I don't know what to write here. 

As you already know, today was extremely boring. VERY. Nothing exciting happens in my life nowadays. I miss my friends a lot. I miss my cousins. I bet Hanan and Sam are having an amazing time right now, or not, but whatever. WHY ME? 

The only close to exciting thing that happened today was that today was the day I tighten my braces. I got my braces just last month. Last month I got pinkish-purple color. This month I got blue. Yay. But now my teeth hurt. A little. YAY. 

It has been a long time since I went to Aunts place. Before we would go every 2 weeks. I don't know why we didn't go for the past MONTH. I love going to my Aunts! She has four children. I'm not going to mention their names cause they wouldn't really like that. 

Eldest sibling is a guy. I think he is 24 years and he works most of the time. He loves Animals, like me! It has been a few months since I last saw him. He used to drive me, Hanan and Aysha around in India. Haha. He is really funny too. And he is a little hit protective but thats really sweet of him. He is so much fun! Last year India was fun because of him. 

Next is a girl and she is 22. She works too. I absolutely love her! She loves Animals too but she hates cats. She is extremely pretty too. She comes over and stays at ours sometimes when she has work near our house. It's fun. We usually go out most of the time when she is at ours. She is smart and so independent and I really like that about her. She is amazing. I love her. 

 Next are the twins, and they are 19. One is boy and the other is a girl. The guy and I have similar music taste and he shows me all these amazing cool bands! He has a cool guitar. And he has amazing hair. Yeah, I really like his hair. He loves Animals too. The girl twin is a very bubbly girl and she fits in, in any situation. She is extremely sweet. And I love her a lot! She doesn't complain about anything. She never says no to anyone. That's the best thing about her. She loves Amimals too. I realized I never told you about my brother. Well, he is 20 and we both hate each other. Done. 

so yeah, I love all of my cousins. They are all really awesome. All of us had some really funny and awesome moments together. I'll talk to you about that tomorrow cause it's a bit long, so yeah. I'll remember dont worry. 

I'm really not in the mood to talk today, so yeah. This is it. I'm gonna go now. 

Well this is awkward.

-Reem.

Today was an overall boring day.

Today was boooring. 

Yeah. Extremely boring. So I have absolutely nothing to talk about. Actually wait. I do. 

So, there are few 7th and 8th graders who add me on Facebook. So yeah. I add them back. So obviously their posts will appear on my newsfeed. So, yeah, I saw this like 7th grader and she was like "I was so stupid to believe in love and all that shit". And others all "That awesome moment when you see a hot guys at malls!" and another one "Omg, my friends are such motherchuckers" LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL. YOU'RE IN THE 7TH GRADE! When I was in 7th if any guy called a girl "babe" that was like ultimate "bad thing". When my friend got a crush "OHMYGOD! A CRUSH?". And here, this girl, calling her friends motherchuckers. Kids these days. *sigh*. 

Oh and I love oatmeal.com. It's like this web comic sort of thingy. It's really cool and really funny. Yeah, I'm into all this comic stuff nowadays. Sooo, if you know any just comment them down below and I'll check em' out! I really like www.cheerupemokid.com too. Yeah. I become really emo sometimes and I just stay in my room the whole day and go all "I HATE MY LIFE. I AM HORRIBLE. WAAH" and I just become really sad and depressed. But I guess that happens to evey girl, every month. So yeah. 

I was made for loving you baby! 
and you were made for loving me! 
And I can't get enough of you baby! 
Can you get enough of me? 

YESSS! I FREAKING LOVE KISS! THEY BE SOOOO AWESOME. I must have the weirdest taste in music. Cause I like rock, metal and all that stuff, but I like One Direction too. I'll like any genre really. It depends on my mood really, and now I'm in the mood for rock. Old rock. I have no idea why. 

and Im missing Sam a lot. It's really boring nowadays. Wah. Okay, this was a little shorter blog than my usual blogs, but Yeaah. Hopefully I'll be better tomorrow. 

Well this is awkward.

-Reem.

I really like today.

Yay. Today was fun! 

Okay, so, I did few "sort-of-fun" things today.

 I saw Home Alone 2. And you can NEVER hate that movie, I freaking love that movie, it is freaking awesome. Macaulay Culkin though. What ever happened to that boy? He was so cute! I frankly thought he was gonna grow up to be a beautiful, fit boy. MAN, I was SOOOO wrong. Well, I did that. 

Then I went SHOOOPPING! Yes, I love shopping. Well, I got only food stuff. But you know what, that's okay, I freaking love food. ALOOOT. I eat. ALOOT. So I got Black Cherry flavored yogurt. Yes, I love flavored yogurt. And I got STRAAAAWBERRIES! Yes, I love strawberries too. AND, yes, there is more, CHOCOLATE! Dairy milk Hazelnut. Oooooh, it's like heaven. That was the shopping part. 

Then, I saw a Hindi movie. I know you are probably thinking like "What the hell Reem? A Hindi movie?" yes, a Hindi movie. And that was actually the best part of today. The movie is called "Barfi" and it's my favorite movie right now. It's about this guy called Barfi and he can't hear or speak. And he falls in love with a girl called Jhilmil you is autistic or something. AND IT'S THE MOST ADORABLE MOVIE EVER!! I started crying, really badly. I cried so much. It was that amazing. I absolutely love that movie. Best movie ever. Oh my god. It's so cute! 

So, I'm like really happy today. VEEEERY HAPPY! I may not be showing it, but I am. So, I listen to happy songs. My friend calls them gay songs. Cause the singer sounds a bit gay. Well, he does, but I still love it. You will probably hate it. The band is Never shout never. And I love them. I also like to listen to dancy songs. And I'm listening to a lot of old songs right now. Like, My Sharona, Bohemian Rhapsody, Dirty Diana, TNT etc. 

Like the previous blog, today too I don't have much to speak about. I still miss Sam a lot. I miss all her sarcastic jokes. I guess I'm gonna see her only next year. GETIT? Okay, that was lame. Soooo, I guess I'll talk to you tomorrow. 

Well this is awkward.

-Reem.

I feel lonely.

I am lonely. *sniff* 

I miss Sam a lot. I miss Hanan too, but I've got sort of used to missing her. I see her every few years. So yeah. That's not much of a problem. Plus, she get wifi and talks to me sometimes. I HAVEN'T TALKED TO SAM FOR DAYS! And usually she brightens up my day. She is so funny! I miss her. ALOOOT. My friends used to call me a lot too. But now NO ONE calls me! Everyone is in India! It's really lonely. 

Well, I STARTED my homework. YAY PROGRESS! I'm forcing myself to do it. I have like 4 essays and 4 letters. Yes, letters. IN HINDI. I don't get how this will help me in life. I'm want to become anything that has to do with animals. Yes, I love Animals! Ill do anything! Except a vet. I can't bear to see sick animals. It makes me feel horrible and I start crying. Yes, I cry. So, I want to become this person who studies Animals. Behavior, habitat and stuff. I think thats called a wildlife biologist. But, you have to study really hard for that. So I don't know really. 

Remember in the last blog I said I have so much to talk about? Well, I have nothing to talk about right now. Since I have nothing to talk about let me tell you about this prank me and my cousin played on a kid in her school. So, this guy, I'm just going to call him Lucas, has a girlfriend. Let's call her.. Daisy. Sooo, the prank spent sort of like this.. 

My cousin(acting as Daisy): Hello? 

Lucas's dad: Hello? 

My cousin: Can I speak to my daaaaaarling Lucas please? 

Lucas's dad: Excuse me? Who is this? 

My cousin: My name is Daisy, and I want to speak to Lucas. Where is he? 

Lucas's dad: He is not at home. Where does your father work? 

My cousin: Dad? He works at a bank. 

Lucas's dad: and your mother. 

My cousin: oh, you know "some name" miss? In our school? I'm her daughter. 

Lucas's dad: I will get down to you. 

And he hangs up. WE LAUGHED SO BADLY AFTER THAT. Yeaah. We played few more pranks after that, and we get few angry parents calling us back. Yes, the kids would get scared and give the phone to their parents. So mature! But it was fun. Even though Hanan and Aysha weren't there this years vacation it was fun. I thought it was going to suck. But it didn't so yaay. Hopefully next years vacation will be FREAAAKING AWESOME! 

Sooo, I guess that's it for today's blog. Bye and have a great..Time Doing.. What you're doing? Yeah. 

Well this is awkward. 

-Reem.

Procrastination, and.. Stuff.

I am the queen of procrastinating. 

Yeah. I am procrastinating a lot at the moment. Since I am in a CBSE based school, we hardly have ANY time to enjoy during weekends or holidays. Teachers will be like "You had 2 whole days to complete your 10 pages of homework. WHY DIDN'T YOU DO IT?". Okay, first off I have other "better" things to do rather than homework, like Facebook and stuff. Second, the homework you give is sort of like this, "A dude ate two apples. Calculate the temperature outside." Third, I don't want to do it. So Yeaah. 

We are having our Christmas holidays now, so I have a lot of homework. And I always tell myself "Bah, it's easy, I'll do it tomorrow. There are so many days left for school." Then the day before school starts I'm like "OH CRAP. WHY DIDN'T I DO IT?" And finally at school, I'm dead. And I am pretty sure this time, it isnt going to be any different. 

I have no idea why, but there are a lot of weddings taking place this month, and most of my friends have gone to India to attend these weddings. Hanan and Sam being two of them. I miss Sam and Hanan like hell. We three are like the three musketeers or something. Last year when we met, we would do EVERYTHING together. We would spend the whole day just talking and having fun. And OHMYGOD, Sam's granny's place is like heaven on Earth. THERE IS SO MUCH OF FOOD. And I love food. This one time, we were feeling hungry and we three were alone at Sam's Granny's place. So Sam got this HUGE bar of chocolate. It had three rows so we took a row each. And it was like from the tip of your middle finger to like a little bit above your elbow. Yeah that long! At first we were like "WOW. AWESOME. YUMYUMYUMYUM." and we started gobbling down the chocolate. About half way through, we started feeling sick and the chocolate started tasting horrible, but we still ate and in the end we felt horrible. 

*sigh* I miss those days. But I DEFINITELY don't miss the old me. Old me sucks. I think everyone hates the "old them". I was a really stupid person in 2011. I think I wasn't that bad this year. I made loads of new friends and I haven't got into any serious trouble this year. In 2011, you could just go on and on about how many times I got into trouble. And my teacher hated me. She looooved seeing me suffer. Well. Whatever, 2011 has gone, 2012 is going, and I hope 2013 will be awesome. Though I have a feeling its not going to. 

okay, since you guys are going to be stuck with me for a while, I might as well tell you about my pet bird. OH HOW I LOVE HIM! His name is CoCo. He is an Umbrella Cockatoo. I'm pretty sure you are like "OhEmGee, Wtf is that?". It's a parrot. A very noisy one. So, yeah. I just wanted to mention him. I'll be posting a picture somewhere on this blog, after a while. I'm writing this blog from my iPad. And I can't seem to post a photo from the iPad so once I get the laptop I'll post it. 

In the previous blog I was like "I don't even know what to talk about". In this blog, there is so much I want to talk about!! But I'm going to skip all that cause' this blog is already pretty long and I don't want to bore you to death. Yes, I talk alot.

Well this is awkward. 

-Reem. 

Hellooo.

Erm. Hi.

 

Okay. So, you may be thinking like "why is Sam acting so weird?" or not. But whatever, that is because, I'm not Sam. I AM HER EEEEVIL SISTER WHO IS GOING TO TAKE OVER HER BLOGGING THING. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Lol, no. I'm Reem. You have probably heard of me. If you haven't, well, I'm Reem, I am 13 years old and I am Sammy's cousin. As you probably know Sam is in India right now. And in India, getting wifi is like getting water in a big desert on a sunny day. So yeah. I will be taking over for probably a few days. *yaaay*.

Its like 11:30 in the night now and I just remembered Sam told me about 7 hours ago to do her blog. And being the stupid forgetful person I am, I forgot. So now, here I am, writing a blog, late at night when I'm supposed to be snoring to glory. Yep, Sam is sooo  gonna kill me.

You know I am actually a bit scared right now. I hope I haven't like messed anything up. I am being really careful with everything. Im literally like "Okay, what does this do? Hopefully it doesnt delete everything! And this? Hopefully it doesnt delete the whole blogging thing!! Ooooh, and this? HOPEFULLY IT DOESNT KILL ME." Okay, maybe not the last part, but yeah.

Dirty diannaaah! Ooooh.
Dirty diannaaah! Noooo.
Dirty diannaaah! Oooh.
DIRTY DIANNAAAH. LET ME BE.

I have no idea why that song is playing in my head. *Sigh* Michael Jackson. He is a legend. And you know I heard "Beat it" and fell in love with it a month before he died. Well. RIP dude.

Its 12:30. MERRY CHRISTMAS GUUUYS! And Happy anniversary Mommy and Daddy! I love you! Its their 24th anniversary. Wow.

I don't really know what to talk about in a blog. Cut me some slack here okay! I'm new to this blogging thing. At first its always awkward. By tomorrow I promise I will talk about better stuff. Hopefully Sam is having a nice time in India and I hope you guys have a happy and joyful christmas!

Its 1:00. It took me more than an hour to do this. Wow.

 

Well, this is awkward.
-Reem.

I'm having mixed emotions.

Am I happy or pissed? Or just sad.

Well, I dunno. I'm happy to be here. I'm pissed my sister got and iPod touch. And I'm sad about a lot of things.

And about my sister getting an iPod, you might think I'm jealous. Well, I am. A little. But I got quite pissed because I know my sister. Much better than my mom and dad. I might not necessarily like her much, but I know her mind inside out. And as every year passes, I see her becoming more and more like ME. It's not that I hate myself, I just don't want my siblings to become the horrible person that I am while growing up.

This morning, I also saw one of my great grandmothers. My maternal grandfather's mom. I don't know what happened to her, but she was really ill last year. Then a few months later, she got a little better. She's at home now usually on the hospital bed they bought for her. She can't get up. When we went to meet her today, she asked us who my siblings and I were. My mom told her that we were her children. Then my mom introduced us, told her our ages, and then my great grandmother asked if my sister and I were twins. A lot like this went on, asking my mom if she was married and if her sister in laws were married and so on. And it made me wanna cry. Seeing her condition just made me really sad.

Also, I would love to tell you guys about my airplane trip, but I think it would have to wait. I'm really in a hurry right now since we are just traveling here and there. I have to go to my origin town on the 24th.

If you're confused, I'm living in my HOMETOWN. My origin town is in a different state. Long, long ago, Irsnian traders came to my origin town to do trade, married the people living there and settled in that town. Then a language was formed which is a mix of Konkani, Marathi, (Two indian languages) Persian, Arabic and a few other Indian languages. Then years later, a man (who was my dad's OR my mom's great grandfather) came to another city in the state of Kerala, (The state where I'm actually from is Karnataka.) and settled there. Soon, many other people of our family also came and settled in the city. And I lived my first 10 months here.

I like my origin town, but I LOVE my hometown.

Anyway, I'd love to tell you a lot of stories, and a lot are overdue, but the wifi is really hard to get here.

I'm updating this 2 hours later because the electricity went out.

Anyway, I'll probably update by the end of the year. So bye for now.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I HAVE REACHED INDIA!

This is Saturday, December 22nd's post.

I am really sorry I didn't update this. I didn't really get any Internet. There's a LOT to talk about.

Fuck, the electricity went off.

I'm not gonna go in details, but the airplane trip was pretty bad.

I am still in a bad mood. I think I'm gonna be in a bad mood for quite a long time.

Oh thank goodness, the electricity came back. Almost an hour later.

I'll talk about what happened yesterday later, on today's post. I won't have much to talk about anyway. But nevertheless, I'm still happy to be here with my family, and blah blah blah and so on and so forth.

Okay. I'm ACTUALLY here. Just a quick note, I won't be posting from the 25th or 26th onwards till the 30th or something, because I'll be in a rural village or something then. SERIOUSLY. I'll be in my origin town. But I'll tell you about THAT later.

So, bye for now.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Okay. What to say.

I'm going to India tomorrow.

I am a little excited. I guess. I don't really wanna go. I'm not gonna have a good time there. I know it. 

I am so sick. 

Nothing happened today. 

Anyway. Just for the fun of it, IT'S DECEMBER 21. Where shit happens. 

I am lost. I don't know what to say. I am a mess at packing. I don't know what to do. The only thing I got done today was a few characters for our Hindi play. 

I am sleepy. Screw it, I am gonna go sleep.

Sorry for the crappiness.

WHATEVER.

-Sam Frank.

I have reached today.

I took the one less travelled by, and that has made all the difference.

Today was amazing. Though I did see a few weird things going on today.
And a few disappointing moments too.

We had around 2 periods of class today. Maths and English. I also got my English FA paper. It was a 17.5 out of a 20. I was disappointed. 
I wanted to break into tears when I reached home. Well, not really. I promised myself that I would never cry for grades. But I was bummed.

Then after a lot of eating at recess, we went to watch people sing carols. I spent most of the time chatting away with Saba.
After we came back to class, there was a lot of music playing. At that time, Saba, Aisha and I were talking about dancing in public and how we should dance because it is gonna be our second last year together, but we really didn't dance.
Side note: Aisha happens to be one of my closest friends for almost 10 years now. 

Then, in the bus, my friend and I just blasted music on my iPod.

That was my school day. School done for the year.

Tutoring wasn't that bad. Actually, it was good. I did what I had to do. Tutoring done for the year.

It's almost gonna be 2013. This year has flown past my eyes.

I just went to the mall, and I walked a lot. We were searching for some toiletry bag for my uncle.
Speaking of which, my beloved uncle (who bought me my iPod and iPad.) bought me all of the 3 books of the Kane Chronicles, and the 3 books released of the Heroes of Olympus. Yay!

OOOH. It's December 20th. I still remember those terrified souls who were scared of 2012.  I used to laugh a little.

Anyway, it's already late, I gotta get up early and pack my bag. I better go.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

ONE MORE DAY!

Just ONE more day for my winter break.

I am anticipating for the moment when I am outta the school doors. 

I just put in the brownie batter in the oven. I am making chocolate fudge brownies for Anncy and Lisha as their birthdays are the closest to now. Though I am probably gonna get them some other gifts on their actual birthdays.

The brownies were just taken out the oven. They're HORRID. I am not taking them to school tomorrow. I'm sad now.

Also, I was very sleepy today. 

I have work to do, so I'm gonna go.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Overall, today was bad.

And I feel bad.

I had fun at school, it was fine. I am lazy right now.

But something happened which makes ME feel guilty. 

I always tell myself that I should never let my sister make the mistakes that I do because even though we fight, I NEVER want her to go through the horrible things that I've gone through. 

ESPECIALLY in friends. 

In the past, a lot had happened between best friend and I at school. A girl I call, 'J'. (If you wanna know about THAT, I had written a post about it: HERE.)

My sister and her friend were chatting, and I just told her friend that my sister fantasizes about One Direction being our family friends. Her friend laughed a little, and my sister got really angry at me because I made her look bad in front of her best friend. She was worried about what her friend would think of her.

I don't care what my friends think of me. And I told her that she shouldn't too. I told her that if her friend ACTUALLY cared about what I said about her 'imagination', then maybe they shouldn't be friend at all. 

But her friend did call her back. All I heard was:

Sister: BYE.

Friend: You're mean. *Silence* What the heck?

*Friend hangs up*

-Scene-

I have been mad. I have been through situations like this. I had one almost like this with Shwetha a few months ago. She kinda 'intervention-ed' me about something, and I felt so confronted, I didn't say a thing. She then hung up. I called her back sometime later, but I guess I called the wrong number or so, and I was too emotional to call again. Though I apologized the next day. I think. I dunno. I felt that I was mean at that moment when I was silent. 

I dunno. 

Now that I think about it, it doesn't even seem like a big deal. I think Shwetha did the right thing about confronting me about my 'problem'. Because she cares.(You do right? 'Cuz if you don't, I'm gonna be really sad.)

Anyway, back to my sister, I feel like it was all my fault. I am convincing my sister to apologize to her friend, but she doesn't understand. I don't even think she trusts me. I

I'm gonna cry.

Now I'm not. I pushed my tears back in.

Changing the subject, I was pretty energized at school today. Really. I was. I am happy of my progress till now.

I have 6 questions of tutoring homework to do, so I'm gonna rush through that now.

Also, I watched the YouTube Rewind 2012 this year, and I found it amazing. It was great. It had the greatest videos of this year, and I think it was really well put. I also had the amazing feeling of recognizing most of the people in the video. (Which also indirectly means I spend too much on the internet.)

Okay, so I'm gonna go. be nice.

I think I've forgotten to post something. What is it?

UGHH.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Everything is making me so sad.

Yeah. The weather is something else, but so much is going on in the world, I hardly notice it. And it makes me a little guilty.

I just read about the Newtown school shooting, and I feel so sorry for the families of the children and the staff of the school who were shot. My prayers are with them. It breaks my heart a little of HOW the families of the killed must be coping up. 

It also makes me feel quite guilty that I've been moping about the weather, when all THIS has been happening in the world.

R.I.P to those innocent souls.

Anyway, I spent most of the day in the auditorium due to some environmental program.

Today was rainy. I fell down. I must have sprained an ankle. I also got a bruise on my hand.  But whatever.

It was rainy.

It was a normal day. No big thingy or anything at all. I still have loads of incomplete work left. I just need to complete 9 questions of the homework my tutor gave me. Because I can't lie to her for some reason. 

Speaking of lying, this morning, I had fallen down on a sidewalk in my school, and it was a little wet. Somehow, a little pebble almost got into my palm, and I flicked it off. Then that little spot started bleeding. I, being a timid asshole went to the medical center to get a band-aid. But I didn't want to seem like a timid asshole, so I told her that I'd gotten a bruise on my leg instead. Then she asked me to show this bruise to her, and then I panicked and confessed that it was actually on my hand. She then laughed a little because I mistook my hand for my leg. Or is it the other way round?

And don't worry, I have already facepalmed myself a million times today.

Ughh. I need more confidence.

Anyway, I have started watching a series on YouTube, called Becoming YouTube. It's by a British guy who interviews a few famous British YouTubers and vlogs a little or so. I love it. It's not that bad. I recommend you watch it.

Anyway, I better complete my work. 'Cuz I've been procrastinating for the past 2 hours. I know.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

It's been really gloomy.

I am still sick. And it was REALLY gloomy today. Which makes it worse.

I still don't know why. I don't know why my mood changes with the weather. It is kinda stupid. And also a little self-centered. 

Unless you actually knew the time, you wouldn't know what time of day it really if you looked outside. And I don't know why this happens when I'm in Dubai. Usually I go to India around July and August, and it rains A LOT during that time. Especially during August. But I don't seem THAT gloomed out then.

It was an overall okay day, I studied, and I blew my nose a million times. I might have used up more than 10 tissues today. And my nose hurts with all that blowing.

Still hurts.

I got a few of my FA papers today, and I think I've improved. I go an 11 and a half out of 20 in Maths. That's pretty much amazing. I'm proud of myself. I have really begun showing some improvement in Maths. And a 14 out of 20 in Social Studies. I was shocked. My teacher is really strict while she grades our papers. And I thought I'd written some crapped up imaginary shit in that paper. Turns out the shit was actually correct. And I got a 3 and a quarter out of 7 in Biology. I was expecting it.

I have improved in every subject except for Computer and Physics. I just need to get my English and Islamic papers now.

I skipped on tutoring today since I was very tired and the overcast-ness was bringing me down. I would've fallen asleep any minute. Also, I didn't wanna cough and sniff every second. Especially in a class. And of course, my voice is the worst. I sound VERY weird. Though one of my friends called it 'cute'. 

I just have 3 and a half of working school days left. I am not gonna shut up about my vacations. I am ecstatic, excited, overjoyed, enthusiastic and almost any positive adjective you can use to describe joy.

I am gonna go iron my uniform now. I am getting really droopy at the moment.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I AM SO FUCKING SICK. I AM A MESS.

I feel horrible. Terrible. And shitty.

The allergy season has commenced. Oh God, this is gonna be bad. I am SO sick. Worst part, I have to stay with this for almost 4-5 months. 

My throat and nose are killing me. My nose is running faster than Usain Bolt. (THAT was corny.) And my throat just hurts. 

I got nothing productive done today, and my whole body hurts. Especially my face and nose from blowing my nose too much. 

I can't do anything now. I also got an Islamic FA tomorrow. I am wingin' it. I have no choice. It's almost 9 PM, I feel like a blob, and I look like a ghost. I am just gonna pray and sleep now. 

I was packing for most of the day, and my dad came back from China today. He bought me a pair of sneakers, and a pair of Ray Ban glasses and also a bag. Thanks Dad. 

I'll be flying off to India next week, and we're already packing. My house is pretty messy. Just like me. People would be disgusted at my presence. 

UGHHH. I better go. I wanna sleep.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I am so bored. And gloomy. And so TIRED.

I don't feel like blogging right now. 

My house is in a mess. We'll be leaving to go to India next week, and since there are five of us, there's a lot of packing to do. We have 3 weddings to attend, making it more hectic to pack. And since the weddings are in a village in India where I am originally from, it make it worse. It's not like I hate the village, but it's boring. You can count the number of TVs and computers in that place. Also, no Wi-fi. So, for the few days that I am there, I wont be able to blog. I really wanted to commit to this blogging thing by blogging everyday. I think the streak might end.

I was making an organized list of what to take. I love making lists and organizing and planning stuff. Though I NEVER follow my plans. I never can. It's like I only make these plans for the sake of it. Just to show everyone that I am doing SOMETHING. But I am gonna try my best to follow my plans this time. 

Anyway, it was a gloomy day, it was OKAY. Not as horrible as the rainy Friday.  

I also watched the I Knew You Were Trouble video of Taylor Swift. It took ages for me to find it, since it isn't available to watch in Dubai. But it was pretty much brilliant. It fit the song perfectly, though the intro didn't sound like Taylor. Overall I loved it. It was one of her better videos. Well, better than We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together. It was a weird little video. Fun to watch, but not her best.

Well, it's already 12 AM now, so I better get some sleep.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

OMG! 100TH POST!

This is AMAZING. Time flies. I'm already at a milestone.

I am SO thankful for all of those who've been supportive of me. Thanks, Poornima, Shwetha, Hanan, Reem, Saba. I only told a few number of people about this blog, and you were the few people who read this thingy that I do, and didn't think it was stupid. All the people reading the blog, reading it right now, or have been reading it from some time ago, THANK YOU SO MUCH. I have got just around 800 views till now, but that seems like A LOT to me right now.

First, I'd like to start with my Chemistry project. I told you I'd show it to you. Here it is:

This is a model of an atom of Sodium.

 

I am really proud of this. I worked quite hard on this.

Anyway, yesterday, I'd said that I wanna get through the rest of the working school days left before the vacation without any drama. 

I might have started a little drama. But before that, I'd like to get to a topic.

Class partners:

I have had a TERRIBLE history of class partners. Just for the sake of it, I'm gonna name all of them.

MT - My first class partner. We were partners back in 5th grade. She's one of the few people I enjoyed sitting with in my partner history. She's one of my closest friends. EVER. And since she's also a Muslim, it makes it better. I have ALWAYS had a GREAT friendship with almost all my Muslim classmates. No reason though. Seriously.

RT - She was one of my worst partners. We were good friends, but I found her true side when we sat together. It was BAD.

AP1 - She was a calmer partner of mine. I don't remember much with her really. We were just friends.

AP2 - OKAY. I don't know why, but this girl is there wherever I am. She'll be somewhere around me. ALWAYS. We are lab partners too since she's roll no. 7 and I am roll no. 8. And by lab partners, I mean in almost EVERYTHING. Physics, Chemistry, Biology, Computer. (Though now my computer lab partners are Saba and Shwetha.) And she's stern on discipline. Actually she's stern overall. I don't dislike her so much, but her, 'Shhhs' and 'Keep Quiets' are irritating.

B - She was fine. I guess. We were still quarreling though.

Irene - We fought never ending-ly with each other. We swore we'd never be partners EVER again. EVER.

NH - For some reason, this kid was always sick. I was SOMETIMES nice to her, but she was always like, "I'm sick.", "I have bronchitis.", "I am so weak." She was a whiner.

Lisha - For some reason, I never liked her then. But she was supportive of me. Now she's my close friend. 

Poornima - 3 words. BEST PARTNER EVER.

SR - We just became friends this year, since she just came to my class this year, but we are pretty much good friends now. 

S2 - I hated her, now she's fine. She's normal.

S1 - She was annoying. To read more about her, Click ME! I asked the teacher to change my place today. Now I am sitting with JJ.

JJ - I dunno. She is a typical South Indian, but I don't know what she's like. I just sat with her today.

List over.

The drama basically was that I was getting annoyed by S1, and I asked my place to be changed. It's as awkward as a break up.

RANDOM TOPIC!

How to learn the morse code:

You learn it from a 'Morse code for Beginners' or a 'Morse code for Dummies' book. There has to be one of those.

NEXT TOPIC!

Deleting spam mail from your email:

Select spam mail. Click Delete/Trash. Job DONE.

Letting other borrow your car:

I don't HAVE a car. I don't know, Just trust the people you lend your car to.

On other news of today, I had tutoring today, it was FINE. I also got the news that we have some kind of party at school on Thursday. (Not a real party.) I am waiting for Sunday, since that's the time I get the news if my brother is getting into my school or not. That is also the day my dad comes back from China. 

Well I am tired now. Have a great weekend. 

And I would like to thank YET AGAIN to EVERYONE who has EVER read my blog 'cuz it's because of you guys that I am still continuing these. 

Thanks for making this happen.

Whatever,

-Sam Frank.

I'm watching and I'm waiting.

Waiting for the pain to end. 

There are 6 days of school working days left. If I can get through it with no drama or anything, I have succeeded. If I have caused drama, then I am shit.

Today was depressing. OBVIOUSLY because of the weather. It was all foggy and cloudy. I feel like it's gonna be one of those depressing weekends again. Oh, I remembered, I have school tomorrow. I really don't wanna go 'cuz I'm tired. It'll take me the whole vacation to pull up my strength.

To feel a little un-depressing, I got a full 20 out of 20 in my Chemistry project. My teacher told me that it was really good. To make myself really happy, I'll put up a picture of it tomorrow or on Friday. I'm just too lazy now.

And also, I didn't get ANYTHING done today. Right after I came from tutoring, I just sat on the computer to watch movies and listen to songs.

Right now I'm listening to half a decade songs of Taylor Swift. I liked her country songs. I still do. I like her new songs too, but there was so much more 'thingy' in her old songs. 

I'm not getting that word.

My Islamic FA has been postponed till Sunday. So 'YAY!' A little rest. 

*YAWN.* I'm just so sleepy.

My uncle said he'd buy books for me. Woohoo! I'll ask him to get me the Percy Jackson books for me. 

I love my family. They just know I adore books. I'd love to show you guys my bookshelves, but they're too messy and flooding with books.

Anyway, I'm still yawning, so I am gonna get some sleep.

And I just noticed that this is my 99th post! Wow!

So, tomorrow might be my 100TH post! That's cool. 100 days of my life. I'll plan something big and fun to write about tomorrow. It's also Taylor Swift's birthday tomorrow. And her new video is coming out. I can't wait for tomorrow. 

And just before I go, I am so happy that I started this blog thing. It's kinda old school since you have vlogs these days, but I think I'd rather blog than vlog. Whoever has been reading these, thanks SO MUCH for that. You guys have made me just a little bit happier.

And a happy 12.12.12!

And I just looked out, and it's really cloudy. It's not gonna be a good weekend.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

And I've done it once again. I am late.

Though I got A LOT done today.

I'm proud of myself, I did my Chemistry project, (I'll post a picture.) and studied a little for Social Studies, completed some math problems and I have to say, I'm proud. Though I still have shitloads of work to complete. AS USUAL. 

I just have 6 working days of school left, and I can't wait to actually sit down and rest for a little while. I wish we have a class party this time. We had one last year on the 21st of December. Because I really wanna wear casual clothes in school. We NEVER get to wear 'normal' clothes for once in my school. We have to make do with our uniforms. 

It's already 10 PM, and I wanna sleep. So I better get things done fast.

Sorry for the minute posts. Better ones coming up when I'm jobless.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Now I'm just scared.

I DON'T WANNA GO AWAY.

I just got the news that my dad's company is facing a loss. I'm praying that whatever work he does goes well. I DON'T wanna go back to India. I'd be heartbroken if I had to leave Dubai. I LOVE this place. VERY, VERY MUCH. I was raised here, and I am what I am because I was raised here.

I hope all goes well.

It was great day today. I got a 5 and a half out of 7 in my Chemistry FA, I got into the Spelling Bee Semi-Finals with a whopping 49 out of 50! I am absolutely ecstatic.

And I have another thing to be excited for. For a component in Hindi, we have to perform a 3-4 minutes play. I'm looking forward to that. I've always wanted to be in a play.

In other stuff, I am kinda overweight. I don't wanna let out my weight, but I am overweight. I don't look fat, but I really am. 

And tutoring was better than most days. I didn't wanna doze off right away or anything.

Also, the 26th of next month is Indian Republic Day, and selections of the marchpast crew has begun. I just went in just for the fun of it, but I didn't get selected. Neither did Shwetha and Lisha. And they've been crazy about this stuff. I think it's 'cuz you get out of class.

On that note, I wanted to talk about something:

Sports teachers.

I have hated ALL of my sports teachers I've had since 1st grade. Except for my third and fourth grade teacher. And also one sir who used to teach us. I've hated EVERY other sports teacher I had. ESPECIALLY my fifth and sixth grade sports teacher. She was the most partial hoe I'd seen. EVER. She had favorites, and she didn't hide it. She liked almost anyone who joined the sports club in our school. I was not THAT much of a sporty person then. Not that I'm a sporty person now. And I couldn't go for the sports club due to transport. And something I'll NEVER forget her for. She sabotaged my chance of becoming a part of the student council in the fifth grade. I hate her SO MUCH for that. I was this close to being in the council. Then this stupid fool of an ass teacher comes in and chooses some other people over me. I was so pissed off then. 

Anyway, I'm on the verge of crying now. My brother didn't get into my school since his performance in the exam, wasn't 'satisfactory'. I am really broken now. I know I shouldn't be the one worrying about money in the house, but I can't help it. And my sister doesn't get it. I told her if all 3 of us were in the my school, my dad could save around a 1000 bucks a month. But whatever. 

I have really tried to cut down on electricity and such, and I really don't wanna go back. Just praying I can stay here.

Well, I'd better go before I break down.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Oh no. I am shitted.

I am SO SORRY. I am not good with time management.

I can't blog today, since I haven't even studied for Computer. I also haven't done a lot of homework. Plus, I have to iron my uniform. Basically, I'm a mess. 

Shit. Still have loads of work to do.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Aww. It's Saturday already.

It's really hard to let go of the weekends.

Since this one was really good.

I just completed the first series of Percy Jackson, and it was AMAZING. I was amazed. The last book was legendary. Oh God, I KNEW I'd be crazy about this when I bought the first book around 2 months ago. Now, I'll be buying the books of the second series. I really want all the books to be in my collection, but I plan to buy the books one by one. Unless I'm in India. Then I'd be on a book-shopping spree. 

Oh, it's December 8. It's Lennon's 32nd death anniversary. R.I.P. 

And Happy Birthday to my dear cousin. 

I don't wanna go to school tomorrow, I have a Science test tomorrow to study for. Science isn't in my 'favorites' category. I don't 'get it'. I mean, I 'get it' enough to score mediocre grades in it, but I don't 'get it' enough to NOT break my cranium while trying to 'get it'.

'Get it' refers to understanding the concepts of Science taught in my school.

Also, I was going through my old facebook messages today. I used to live on facebook until I reached high school. And I saw loads of messages which made me wanna cringe and hide in a corner. And some which were sweet. Brings back memories. 

As every year passes by, my hatred for the older me(s) grows stronger and stronger. I have made shitloads of mistakes, but I always have Hanan and Reem to talk it through. We all laugh at each other's cringe-worthy moments. I really wanna talk to them in person this time too. 

Anyway, before I start breaking down because I am shitty at Science...

RANDOM TOPIC!

Making up lost time:

Good luck with that. Unless you have mountainloads of willpower inside you, making up for lost time is hopeless. What's gone is gone. Keep moving forward. As the Robinsons said.

You can make up SOME time you've lost if you have enough determination or whatever.

If I had to make up for lost time, I'd be a MESS. I'd have to make up for so much lost time, I wouldn't have time to live in the NOW. Ergo, no matter how much I would try to make up for time I've wasted, lost time would still keep piling up since I'd just live in the past and forget about the present. 

Man, I love old movie franchises. Back to the Future is so cool.

Well, I am trying to get my butt of my already-broken computer chair to go study.

But I don't wanna. Shwetha, call me, and PLEASE motivate me to study. PLEASE!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

OH. The GLORY. It's finally the Weekend.

I am really ecstatic right now. I am feeling very calmed down.

And that's good.

I have been writing notes on Biology right now, so I can focus on Physics and Chemistry later today.

I'm gonna start today by continuing the yesterday's random topic:

Television series you grew up with:

As I talked about it yesterday, I said I liked Friends, and some Indian kids series.

I also used to watch another Indian show called, 'Shararat'. Which literally translates into mischief. It was about a grandmother, her daughter and granddaughter, who are fairies. 

Other shows I watched were, Ed, Edd and Eddy, (With great difficulty, I had to process the information that Edd was a boy.)  Dexter's Laboratory and a lot of Hanna-Barbera cartoons. And my ALWAYS favorite, Spongebob Squarepants. 

Though, of all years of TV watching, I can never take it that some character which I thought was some gender was actually the opposite. Like in Blue's Clues. For YEARS, I thought Blue was a male. It's actually a female. I think it might have been the color.

I guess that would be it for TV shows I grew up with.

I actually wanted to talk about a 'touchy' topic today. I guess. But it's kinda serious.

It's about suicide.

I had blogged about the death of Amanda Todd around a month ago, (Read about that: HERE.) and I'd written something at the time. "A person's life is not WORTH ending on the rage, fury or anger of others." I forgot to mention something else, a person's life isn't worth ending on the rage, fury, anger or ANYTHING of others OR ourselves. I just got the news today that a distant relative of my family hanged himself due to depression early this morning. That's all I know. My mom didn't really tell me that he committed suicide, but I came to know anyway. He was married, and he also had 3 kids. He'd been taking anti-depression pills for around 5 months now.
I don't know what would've been going through his mind at all. You don't know what actually happens to someone till you go through it.
Well, this man might have been through A LOT, 'cuz he was pretty religious. And it is a MEGA-sin to commit suicide in Islam. 
And according to me, nothing is big enough to talk through with SOMEONE. If I haven't told something to my parents, then I have atleast told it once to a best friend. 
And I imagine what would be going through the minds of the kids. The eldest child used to be my sister's classmate a few years ago. They didn't even show the father to the kids since it would instill some kind of traumatic picture in their heads.
I hope and pray the best for the family, and I pray they move on.
And believe in yourself, always know that you are the only YOU in the world, and if you do anything to harm yourselves, then, "The terrorists have won." (That's my favorite line from Prom.)

Before I continue anything else, I'd like to say,

VICTORY!

I just completed making my biology notes for the FA on Sunday. Now I can continue on Chemistry and Physics. 

And today wasn't much. Was a good weekend, but still boring.

I really wanted to post a video of CoCo (Reem's cockatoo) dancing, but my mom's email isn't working. It's on her 5 million year old iPhone 3GS.

I dunno what else to talk about, and I really wanna go watch SNL now, so...

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.