Come a little closer, then you'll see.

Actually, don't. This is only a line from a song. Also, I am very scary from up close.

Nothing much happened today, other than the result of the Physics paper. It was HORRIBLE. The total was probably worse. 

I did do better this year, but it was a very small improvement. No, let me rephrase that.

It was a VERY small improvement. Absolutely disappointing. Neither do I keep up with my potential, nor my resolution.

But speaking of resolutions, I want to talk about the list I planned to do, little by little. And I have done one of these items on my list: 'Start a collection'

I was actually searching for some abundance of collectibles in one of my keepsake boxes. And I found...COINS. Yep, just coins from around different places of the world. Which is pretty weird, since I hate the smell of coins. I just HATE it.

So, this what my list looks like now.

1. Start a collection
2. Go Green
3. Listen to new music
4. Create a tasty dessert
5. Try a new hairstyle

The next one I plan to do is, 'Listen to new music' This is not really that big of a deal, but it's still on the list. 

And I plan to do this with the help of a list given to me by one of my best friends, Hanan. She listens to all different kinds of music, and I will be choosing songs from her list and listening to them, and commenting on them.

I still do not know what songs I am going to listen to, though. 

But there is another important thing I wanted to talk about. The way people see me. It's because, of what I know, most people I know think I am good. In some kind of social way and in a general way. But I don't feel that I am.

When school reopened this September, I found myself pulling away from the people with whom I was once close with. Not necessarily all my close friends, but a few of the unexpected ones. 

And that was just a start of it. I feel like I am becoming meaner everyday. I don't mean to be. But I just am. I just seem that I am colder.

Now I am gonna leave, and continue this blog on Thursday. 

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Well, I couldn't continue on Thursday. Neither could I do it on Friday. I was out the whole day on Thursday, and I was studying yesterday. Yep. I was just absorbing all the Trigonometry, Economics and Physics I could. I was just astonished by my grades this semester. Not one of my best works.
I even got 3rd highest in my class for English, but that did not seem enough.

I get such a demonic rush from beating people in academics or ANYTHING. I get this metaphorical red glow in my eye which tells me, 'You are so much better.' I feel evil. At this point of my life, I feel that, I never work hard for myself, I just work hard to get to the top. Because right now, that is all that matters. To be on the top. I have ingrained it in my head that I have to be in the top ranks of the Arts stream next year. I don't know why, but I HAVE TO. Maybe I'll understand later.

I have been watching One Tree Hill lately since the exams are over, but I have forgotten half the story, so I am still stuck in mid-season 2. Also, right after an episode ends, I will listen to some songs from the episode and add to my library. I adore the One Tree Hill soundtrack. It is just my type. I am listening to some of the songs right now. OH, I LOVE IT. It is just BEAUTIFUL. 

Well, I have to get going to study. 

I'll come around.

#NowPlaying: Center of Attention — Jackson Waters

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.