Hey there!

My name's Hanan, I wish it was Hanna, and I'm Sam's oh-so-awesome cousin. ;-)

AND 'TIS MY FIRST BLOG POST.  *plays dramatic music* 

So I don't really know how this works, not much of a blog reader either...I'm I like, supposed to rant , and then rant, and then rant some more? If yes, then luck is on my side..cuz that's pretty easy.

Rant no. 1: I'm a few months older to Sam, old enough to start junior year in high school in a few days. (Im 15, not old enough really but who cares) I already got my books, AND BOY,  they are obese...and Sam must have already mentioned how our high schools are different from the ones in UK and USA, we have it WAAAY WORSE. I haven't even started the year and I hate it already. I'd have an exam practically daily..oh joy. Overwhelmed with ecstasy, I can't even... sigh.

Rant no. 2: As of now, I have holidays...which I should make the best of. There's so frikken much to do, but I've no clue where to start! I've illegally downloaded a gazillion books and movies (rebel alert), but I don't know from which one to start. I've got loads of shows to catch up with too. Last October I watched the first four seasons of Supernatural, 4 more to go. Then there is The Vampire Diaries, the last episode I watched was the tenth one in Season 4, I couldn't go any forward cuz Elena's character is so annoying, all she does is whine all the time, jump from one brother to another, everybody keeps dying for her, would have saved SO MANY lives if she just died herself. Which she did...but then she became a vampire, and all her senses got heightened, including her whininess. Ain't nobody got time for an Extra Whiny Elena. But I miss the show so I'm gonna start watching the show again, for the sexy Salvatore brothers. HELL YEAH!

Anyway, I don't know what to type anymore...

This was probably terrible but since it's my first, don't judge aight?. x

- Hanzy x

P.S- Everytime I blog, I'm gonna add this daily playlist thing, as in a list of some of the songs I have listened to on repeat the entire day.

So here goes...

I write sins not tragedies- Panic! At the disco
Holiday- Green Day
Work- Iggy Azalea
Work- Jimmy Eat World
Paperthin Hymn- Anberlin
Miss you- Blink-182
Forever- Escape the day
You are- Colton Dixon
My song knows what you did in the dark- Fall out boy
And many many more! 

It's been a day.

A long, yet uneventful one.

But, I finally met Reem. Even though it was just after 2 weeks. 

Friday was like every other Friday. 

I woke up, read, played and had a bath. I waited till the Friday prayer was over, and jammed out onto some music. Sometime after, the guests started coming in. Sme more time later, Reem arrived. YAAAYYY! 

We had a lotta fun. We spent most of the time either watching sme videos, or playing with our cousin. Mostly playing with our cousin. She is the cutest kid. Though she reminds us of her uncle. Her uncle is just 4-5 years elder to us, and we HATE him. He is a LOSER. That's all I got to say about him.

A few hours later, Reem left. Though one of my mom's cousin stayed. I hate her son. We were best friends when we were kids, but we grew apart, and had a few fights or something, and we began to hate each other. And I still hate him. They stayed for a while. 

And after the house was empty of all the guests, I instantly began playing Subway Surfer.

Well, screw that. On other news, my grandparents are leaving for India tomorrow. Though I've had a touch time while they were here, I am gonna miss the. OBVIOUSLY. Bt my dad's sister is gonna come to Dubai with her daughter, and I am psyched. They both are one of my favorite people in the world, and my cousin hasn't come to Dubai for a long time. 

Also, my iPad is being a douche. Not my iPad, but it's keyboard. I can't even type properly on it now. Sometimes I'm thankful for autocorrect.

I WANT MY PC!

Well, I'm pretty sleepy. I'm gonna go away now.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Sorry. A LOT.

My computer's gone for repair.

And apparently, to fix a computer fan, they have to wipe out my hard disk. LOSERS.

Today was mildly eventful. I got my results today. It was OKAY. I got all A for Englsih this year. I got a B for my Math exam. That's good. That means I've got ATLEAST 65 out of 90 this time. Which is better than the 44 I got last semester. I got a D for Science though. Expected that. I was in Bs for Arabic and Hindi. Ditto for Computer. I got a C for Social Science. Bleh. 

The Parent-Teacher meeting went well too. 

The main thing is, I passed. 

Man, 10th grade is gonna be tough. I really wanna work hard. Only for the sake of my parents' dignity. Also, I wanna know how it feels to get AMAZING grades.

My bridge classes begin on the 1st of April, and I am not psyched. I'll have class on the first day. That sucks. Bridge classes are just normal extra classes for a specific grade.

But for now, I'm just gonna BLEEPING enjoy the time I got, and read, and listen to a LOT of MCR or whatever. 

I am looking forward to tomorrow (Friday), cuz Reem's gonna be here. YAHOO! I am excited.

I am pretty sad that those LOSERS at the repair office thingy have to wipe out my computer's hard disk to fix the fan. I was so sad. My dad asked me what I wanted to save. I said EVERYTHING. He wouldn't listen. I'm probably gonna go to the office next week to put my stuff in my hard disk.

I also just arrived from a dinner party of one of my relatives. My relatives are cool, but their apartment building is terrible. It's an old building, and their elevator is terrifying. I HATE their escalator. The lighting isn't proper, and it's so creepy and scary. And I'm a bit of claustrophobic. And their area is horrible, so I can't go by myself on the staircase. I have no idea why I'm scared at all.

I'm a little less depressed than before now. Which is a relief. My crying was making me worse. I think I can say that I'm much happier than I was 2 days ago. 

Well, I gots to go now. 

More later. 

I MAY have something cool planned for my last day of freedom. 

BYE!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I'm not normal. I'm not me.

I'm different.

The worst thing, I'm not who I was when I began this blog. Today has been intense. I look different because I've been crying for most of the day and there is no kohl on my waterline. I look weird.

I've OBSESSED with MCR for the past few days, and I was just listening to it, when I got thinking. Just thinking. The whole day, I was annoyed by my sister and the rest of my family. Every moment I spent with them, the more I felt that I had to go away. I was being horrifyingly weird the whole day. I had no eyeliner on, and if I wasn't playing on the iPad, I was walking around the house. Just walking. Around the evening, I listened to more MCR while I drew emo kinda pictures. (That's what they looked like to me. I was being overly dramatic. Like I'm in a movie.) They turned out fairly good. In my opinion.

This carried on for the whole day. My mum then came to my room to talk to me about why I was acting like I was. I broke down and I said I don't know. She asked me whether I wanted to go to the doctor or whether I wanted a counsellor or something as such. I cried and cried, and told her that I wanted to go to a boarding school. She said she never wants to keep her kids away from her and she asked me why I wanted to leave. I didn't wanna tell her cuz I knew she wouldn't understand. I wanted to leave because I always feel like I'm tied down to my family, and I wanna feel like I've ACTUALLY lived in my teen years. Most of all, I wanna be independent. I don't wanna be pushed out in the real world when I'm 18 and be naive because my parents didn't tell me what the world was really about. My parents would never understand why I wanna go away and why it is important to me. I don't plan to tell them either. They will counter attack all my explanations because that's what they do. They will have something negative to say about all my pleads. 

So I stop trying.

I KNOW I'll be stuck to one place till I die. 

Cuz that's what life is. It's REAL.

Moving on, our talk went on for what seemed like ages to me, and around 11 PM, my mom offered to make me some food. I accepted. I ate, and now I'm waiting for myself to fall asleep. 

I hate days like these when I'm sad. But today, it was different. I was DEPRESSED. NOT the depressed that I am when it's gloomy or whatever. But really depressed. I was at a point when I pleaded my mom to take me to a doctor because I was physically, mentally and emotionally unstable.

But I'm better now. A little.

My mom and I made up and she said that the both of us will go shopping tomorrow evening for some stuff, and my dad will take the computer to get it fixed.

My parents don't know this, and I doubt A LOT that they'll read this. 

Mom and dad, I have never ever told you this, but, I LOVE YOU VERY BLEEPING MUCH. 

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

The drama in here is crazy.

Since I slept and woke up to myself crying.

Because I've just been crying too much. I've been saying its my grandparents, but it's wrong to blame it on them since they're not even doing it on purpose.

I dunno why, but when somebody hurts me, I always blame them for my sorrow, but most of the time it's just me. It takes me a lotta time to sober up from the fury and rage. To now, I'm just doing crosswords and sudoku puzzles listening to My Chemical Romance. I've literally been singing the chorus of 'Helena' in my head the whole day.

ARGGGH! It's so frustrating to type on the iPad. It's worse since its broken.

Also, I've been doing A LOT of sudoku and crosswords these days. It's weird. New hobby.

Atleast I'm improving on my language.

I didn't do much today, cuz it was so gloomy outside. I don't know WHY I didn't do anything. I just waited for 12 PM, ordered in my Subway, ate it, watched TV, had a bath, and stayed at my aunts house being jobless.

I am losing a bit of weight, but I'm being EXTREMELY lazy. 

I started a blog post on my other blog a few weeks ago, and I still haven't completed it. I haven't really switched on my computer since hate it. And I need to get its fans checked. There is a lot of fixing of stuff to be done in my house. Mostly me since I am being a jackass these days.

Getting back to MCR, I am terribly sad they broke up. I really liked them at the beginning of the month, and I was just randomly listening to them, but after they broke up, the situations kinda turned into a 'you don't know what you got till its gone' thing, and I began loving them. This is one of the few bands I'm proud to be a fan of. 

I'm looking forward to school now, because it's a new year, but I am pretty sure I want the vacations to come in soon cuz I got weddings to attend in India. And I'm stoked. I AM REALLY looking forward to these weddings, and I KNOW they are gonna be awesome since these weddings are of people I'm close to. And because of that, I get all the inside action. And in one of the weddings, I'm closer to the bride's side, so I get to take the make up from the stylist. I think. 

Also, I can use the weddings as an excuse to get makeup. My blue eyeliner is blunt now, and so is my good black one. 

The worst thing about getting makeup is that these women come to me, asking me what I want, and I just wanna look at stuff. I'm not really into buying stuff. And because I'm usually in a scarf, they keep talking in Arabic to me, and it's strange. I went to Sephora a few months ago, and I took me pretty long to get my stuff since this nice lady was asking me what I want, and I wasn't sure cuz I hardly go to makeup stores.

I really gotta go now because I'm very tired and sleepy.

See ya.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Oh frack. Lots'o thangs to be did.

Including this. Sorry for the lateness.

The week has been quite eventful. 

Also depressing.

If you read my last blog post, I was staying in Abu Dhabi for the weekend. That was fun. I have an alibi to cover for Friday's non-existent post. (Believe it if you will.) It's the usual. I was out. When I am in Abu Dhabi, I usually stay home and rarely go out since there is usually someone at home. That was my plan on Friday too. But one of my cousins had an impending treat to give his family 'cuz he got engaged. The treat was chili's amazing molten chocolate cake. The whole house was going out, so I had to go with them. The ride to chili's was fun. But chili's wasn't THAT fun. We had a good time for the first 5 minutes, but then it got boring, and it took A LOT of time for our food to come in. And when the time of eating the supposedly glorious molten cake came, everyone was excited. Only downside...

IT WASN'T GOOD. 

It wasn't exactly horrific, but I'd expect more from a molten cake. When I eat usually eat one, I melt inside, I feel the ice cream and the hot cake fusing and creating a fusion of different tastes in my mouth. It is HEAVENLY. 

I did not feel any of those when I ate the dessert. And the cake wasn't even hot. It was kinda warmish. 

We were actually gonna leave home on Friday night, but it took a lot of time at chili's, so we had to postpone it for Saturday morning. 

Then came Saturday. We reached Dubai around 12 PM, and at we had to leave for one of our relatives house for lunch at 2 PM. The lunch was good, it had my favorite foods, and then it came time to go back. My dad was still in India, so my uncle offered to drop us. He took the longer route, so we didn't reach home until, like, 6:30 PM. I hate Dubai's traffic lights. 

I also came to know A LOT of things yesterday. Mostly including music.

This was a big blow because I just finished reading Looking for Alaska on Thursday night. And it felt just like it feels when a TV show ends. You don't know what the BLEEP you're living for. I am on the lookout for the Fault in Our Stars and Thirteen Reasons Why right now. 

Anyway, back to music, I came to know that My Chemical Romance disbanded. WHY???!!! Just when I started liking them. JUST when I started liking them! JUST! 

I was literally listening to Welcome to the Black Parade on repeat a few days ago. 

Also, one of my favorite bands, Allstar Weekend went on an indefinite hiatus in the beginning of February or March or something. 

And Selena left the Scene. Gomez was much bearable when she was with The Scene. She's becoming too desperately sassy these days. 

I was also gonna say something else, but I forgot what it was. Typical me. 

I don't really have much to say, probably because I am too lazy, so I am gonna watch the Kids Choice Awards. DON'T judge me. It's fun watching celebrities getting whacked with unknown goo.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I am in Abu Dhabi! YAY!

Not really. I really like it here, but I am not having 'fun'.

There are loads of animals here. Not that I have a problem. I am not exactly scared of animals, but I don't like touching them. I have VERY less maternal instincts. I would not clean up a bird's shite even if you paid me. I am just not good with animals. And my aunt has 2 birds and a few cats. 

The only entertainment here has been my family. My mom is terrified by cats. So is my grandma. As well as my siblings. It's a riot. Now I know how they feel when I am scared. And when they are scared, I am usually merciless. WHY? Because they ALWAYS mock me. ALWAYS. Whether it's thunder and lightning, or masses of water, or elevators, they have never had pity on me. EVER. That hurts.

Anyway, today has been okay. It has not been amazing or anything. 

My dad has gone to India, so we had a driver drop us off to the house. And the route to the house is quite confusing. A little bit. The driver didn't know the route, so he had to call up my uncle on it. And he's a bit of a fast talker. Also, it was pretty foggy and dusty, and we couldn't see much. It was eerie.

Though I am alone with one of my cousins, and their grandma. And that's what I love about staying here. Their grandma is usually home, so I don't have to go out and visit people and check out malls while I am here. It's only an hour drive or so, but I HATE road trips. I DESPISE them. So, they usually tire me out. And the majority of the time when I come to Abu Dhabi, we will arrive during noon, and leave around late evening. And for me, that's tiring. So, we'll be staying here for the weekend, though we will probably leave tomorrow. But whatever.
I do not know how my aunt and her family do it. They come to Dubai quite frequently. ESPECIALLY their kids. Their colleges are in Dubai (I think.), and I don't know how they can manage it. Maybe it's because they come and go very often. 

OOH. Some of our relatives came. WOO! Why couldn't have they come in the afternoon? The outside looked really creepy. 
I was actually looking forward to some alone time here. (Well, not really. I cannot bear to be alone in a villa. I am VERY happy that the house is gonna be filled. I just won't admit it because I usually put on the 'nerd/loner who keeps reading YA books in the corner' attitude when I am around people. Actually, I put on a LOT of attitudes depending on the situation. I am a different person at every different place.)

I heard Reem's coming tomorrow. PLEASE COME. PLEASE. I dunno if you're reading this, but it would be nice to see you. Actually, it won't. (Yes, it would be amazing. OF COURSE. I love mah best friends.) Because you'd stick to the birds. -_- I KNEW IT! Reem loves animals too much. It's pretty much yawn whenever I am with her in Abu Dhabi. She'll just run after them animals. And be, "AWWWWW!" Only one thing. She'd never stop. She'd just "AWWWWW!" around the place. Just carrying animals hither and thither. (Damn right I learnt some Shakespeare. Our school taught us Macbeth in the 7th and 8th grade. I loved it.)

Okay. I don't wanna write more, because I am too lazy, and I wanna go down to the ground floor. And I dunno, watch some videos, or read a book, or just check out the HIMYM marathon on TV.

BYE! See ya!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Today's been a bad one.

I'm just gonna say it.

My iPad broke. Judge me however you want to, but I'm sad. And I like technology. A LOT. They are like my friends. Like my books. I know, sad life. My best friends are my books. 'Cuz they never change. They're just the way they are when I first saw them. And they don't leave you when you get a little too clingy.

Well, that's life.

Anyway, it's not been a good day. First, I was VERY VERY VERY close to playing the Sims after a LOOOOOOOOONG time, when the computer overheated and shit down. AGAIN. I was so close. I'm just depressing myself when I'm typing these down.

And I don't even wanna look at my iPad. (Though I already am since I'm typing this down on my iPad.) it looks HORRIFYING. 

I was just sitting on my bed, watching HIMYM on my iPad, when the phone suddenly rang, and my iPad fell down on the floor. Then there were some bits and pieces falling out. Then I cried. Yeah, I did. 

I find more and more faults in my iPad the more I look into it. 

I also find more faults in myself as I'm looking back. Back to everything. WHY the BLEEP am I whining about this shit? I dunno. Technology is my best friend. It SHOULDN'T be. Maybe this is for good. Who knows? 

Also, I've been having the 'Life is full of disappointment' attitude for quite a while. I'm just sighing and getting all emo on everything. 

So, I am planning to get optimistic. A little bit. Baby steps. I am having a much better life than other people, so I should enjoy it. 

I'm also going to Abu Dhabi (UAE's capital) tomorrow, so I guess that should be fun. I guess. I HOPE. 

My aunt's house is quite huge, so I guess I'll have some space.

I have to sleep now. Cuz I have to get up at 6 AM. Damn. Just when I was getting used to the 'get up whenever you want' schedule.

Okie. 

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I forget A LOT of stuff.

Like this thang I be doing here.

I like blogging, but I just happen to forget these days. It's like I am posting every alternate days. 

I didn't do much today. We had gone to a mall around 4:30 PM, and I was just sitting in Borders. Their Borders is shit though. It's crappy small. 

I just read the first few pages of Tommy Sullivan is a freak, expecting that my grandmother will buy the book for me. But my mother didn't let her. Buzzkill.

I am also crazy about the Boogie Board. THE Boogie Board. NOT Boogie Board-ING.

It's kind of an electronic pad, where you can write or something. I dunno. Research it.

I had some Baskin Robbins today. That was good. My parents hardly buy that. The last time I had it was last July when I was staying at Reem's house. Those be good times.

I am getting TOO moody these days. It's sickening. I don't know how my family hasn't beaten the hell outta me. I deserve it for being a dick.

Today, when my mom told me that everyone's going to the mall, she asked me whether I wanted to come, or whether I'd stay at my aunt's house. I said I'd go to my aunt's, and then I packed up to leave, when I told my mom that I am coming to the mall with her. Then my granny was like, "That's good. You're coming out with us." And for some reason, I said, "Hmm, no. I'm staying at my aunts'." I left, and then I went back home to tell my mom to get some birthday cards. Then I left again, and walked around here and there, still deciding whether I leave or not. Then I went back home AGAIN and told my mom that I was coming to the mall with them. I'm sure this whole thing pissed them off.

I'm a douchebag. I'm the worst daughter/sister/friend/granddaughter/relative EVER. I need to see a psychiatrist or something.

We went to mall, my family did some shopping, and at night, we went to eat at the Chicken Tikka Inn. That was tasty.

And that was today. I didn't do much. I just fought with my computer since it ALWAYS overheated when I put in The Sims. Stupid fans. They don't even work. I even got a cut on my finger. I was literally fighting with it. I was this close to throwing it on the floor. I was pretty angry today. I keep expecting that the computer is gonna work, when it doesn't. And that enrages me. I haven't even played Showtime and Late Night since I got it. And that pisses me off. I just want something to make it work.

Well, I'll go. It's late or something. BYE!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank. 

I am a quitter.

And I am not proud.

I WANTED to quit, but I wanted to learn too.

Yeah, I quit the STEAM program. So I sent an email to the coordinator to save me the trouble.  

This was what I sent her:

Hello,
I am Aysha from 9 H,
I am one of the participants of STEAM, but I don't think I'd be able to make it for the next 2 days of the program due to personal family commitments.
Therefore, I'd like to quit the program so I wouldn't cause any inconvenience to my group members. 

Thank you

But she just sent one line of an answer saying that I give her my group number, and a few lines mini-lecturing me about how I shouldn't say 'Hello' while I am talking to a teacher and I should stick to the normal 'format'.

It's not like I think it's a big deal, but we're talking over the Internet. I am not gonna be EXTREMELY nonchalant or rude or anything, but she got on my back for saying HELLO. Now, I actually don't like this teacher. The moment when I saw her at school last Thursday, she was already giving off a bad vibe to me. I could literally imagine her saying what she replied back to me. 

But whatever. It's stupid.

I don't really feel good about quitting because I am a HUGE quitter. My dad's friend got me a Nintendo when I was around 8. And just because I couldn't figure out those games, I gave up, and told my dad to give it away. I regretted it a year later after figuring out how cool video games are.

Man, I love video games. I don't really 'socialize', but if someone came to join me while I'm playing some game, and happens to like that game, we're gonna be BFFs in an hour or so.

And I was checking out some animation websites today, and one of my friends told me about GoAnimate. I was just doing some amateur creation, and my animation was very unintentionally racist for some reason. 

I am running out of stuff to talk, SO...

RANDOM TOPIC! (Haven't done this in a while)

Homer depictions:

Which Homer are we talking about? I don't know anything about the Odyssey Homer, but I do know Homer Simpson. Though I dunno what to do about the depictions. 

Well, screw it.

NEXT TOPIC!

Ways to save pennies:

WHY do you want to save PENNIES? I know I am not American, and I know that those pennies can be big money if you save some over a course of years (Probably decades.), but even I know that pennies are USELESS. They are like a 1/100th of dollar, and it costs 1.8 cents to even make a penny. That's an idiotic loss. US keeps whining about their economic problems, when they're the one of the reasons causing it! They make a zillion pennies a year, making them lose around a few millions every year because nobody even cares about pennies other than some losers who got time to waste. I dunno why US is so reluctant to abolish those pennies. 
I isn't gonna be telling any way to save pennies 'cuz I wouldn't like to waste my time and as well as yours.

Umm..that got rant-ish.

We've got two denominations in UAE. The dirham and the fil. A fil is 1/100th of a dirham. But we only have coins for 25 fils, 50 fils and 1 dirham. At least those are of SOME use. I find myself in need of them because I can buy stuff from it. And the value of a dirham isn't that low either. 1 dollar = 3.68 dirhams. That's something.

Well, I can't talk more about money now.
That's enough.

Also, one of my best friends, Reem, is gonna be blogging when she feels like it. She blogged today, so check it out. 

BYE! More later!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Yay! Back agaaaain. :D

Hellooooo! 

Hey! If you haven't guessed, IT'S REEEEEM! :D Well, Sammy asked me if I wanted to blog, and I was like, okay! So yeah. I am blogging now. Oh, and bridge classes today. Bridge classes are these extra classes for 10th and 12th grade. It was fun. But all the teachers could talk about was how hard its gonna be. How we need to work hard this time. And oh, they couldnt stop talking about boards. Boards are these exam thingys we have. Horrible exam thingys. Only 10th and 12th grade have it. Okay, chuck that! I cannot believe I'm a 10th grader. Like, It's so.. Big. And this time I really have to work hard. No more procrastination. 

Well, I actually agreed to do this because I just wanted to talk. I don't really know why but this blogging-thing is fun! I would do one, but I would never be committed to it. I would be very lazy to update it and yeah. This blog is going to be something I just want to let out. Basically things I want to change about myself.

So. I've always been the really shy girl. YES I KNOW, hard to believe. Cause' I am pretty friendly and sometimes I don't care about what people think about me, but other times I actually do. I dont have a lot of friends also because YOU have to make the first move. Once you start talking to me I start being comfortable around you and yeah. I wish I was more confident. My shyness is so bad that I don't answer questions in class and teachers think I'm a weak student. But I'm not. I go completely blank and nervous when I have to answer a question. So that's what I want to change, I want more self confidence. 

I have the confidence to do things around people I know won't judge me. I feel self conscious when I'm around people I don't really know. I always feel like, what do they think about me? Do they like me? Do they hate me? Do they think I look pretty or ugly? And so on. I know I shouldn't care about all this but deep down, I'm very sensitive. Omg. I can't believe I just said this. Because I didn't tell this to anyone. When my friends insult me, it's like blah, I know they don't really mean it, but if a teacher scolds at me, I feel like crying because it hurts really. It makes me feel like that teacher doesn't like me. And I hate it when people don't like me. Because I like everyone really. If a person says they don't like me I feel like a horrible human being. It just makes me wonder like, why doesnt that person like me? I know I shouldn't care about what people think about me, but I just do. So I want to change that about me too. I don't want to care about what people think. 

Soooo those are two things I wanna change about me. Just wanted to let it out. And it feels much better. Oh! And this girl! Sammy! My Sammy, I think she is absolutely amazing and deserves a lot more love. If you like us PLEASE tell your family and friends about this awesome blog. 

PEEEEEACE!  <3

-Reem (:

The first Weekend of Spring Break.

Just 2 more weeks to go.

I can't really talk much now, since I was out almost the whole day. Kinda like 9 to 9. We had gotten out of the house around 9 AM, and when we reached back home, it was already 8:15 PM.

I am not gonna make the interesting, I'm just gonna say what happened.

We had breakfast at our aunt's house today (In another city in UAE, it's just a 30 minute drive though.), and I just read a book there. I was so bored. 

It was Friday, so we have Friday prayers which are compulsory for men. My family was planning to go to a mosque in another part of the Dubai, and so were most of the relatives. My sister had her periods, and for some reason, just because my stomach was aging all morning, my mom thought I had it too. (Now there's this thing. If you have periods, you cannot pray, or enter a mosque, or touch the Quran. As of what I've heard.)' So I had to stay at my aunt's house. 

I was okay. I stayed there, but we also had a lunch party to attend at Reem's house, and to avoid any delay, my aunt took us to another mosque nearby. (It made no difference. Whoever we were with, we'd end up in a mosque.) 

And after an awkward sit at the mosque, and another awkward sit in the car, we were at Reem's! 

But Reem was working, and helping her mom all day for the price of 50 bucks. as in Dirhams. It was okay, I guess. But I had LOADS of fun. Today was just EPIC-ly hilarious. 

We stayed there till 4 PM, and we dropped one of my aunts to her apartment (Reem lives quite far away.), but then my dad remembered that one of relatives is opening a shop (In yet another city. Which was another 30 minute drive.), so we had to go there for the opening. It was kinda terrible and tiring. 

By the time we reached home, it was 8:15 PM, and I was just sleepy. I didn't sleep though. I had stuff to do.

And talking about stuff, I am thinking of quitting the STEAM program because I don't think it is for me. I am pretty confused. I'm racking my brain so hard.

I should probably get some sleep.

I'll talk more tomorrow. If I can.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Well, today was ultimately NOT disappointing.

That's a surprise. It is.

To start off with, I got selected for STEAM. There weren't many people, so we were all naturally chosen. 

But STEAM isn't what it's all cracked up to be. Or it isn't really what I expected it to be.

I thought that STEAM would be a learning experience, but it isn't. The most part of it is boring. But it's also quite fun. I'm not really enjoying my group 'cuz I don't really connect with the members. All of them are from my class, but they are ALL directioners. (The type of people I hardly get along with.) And one of them includes this REALLY annoying girl. Who's terrifyingly stubborn. And nonsensical.

Also, our topic is the French Revolution. I dunno what the hell I am gonna be doing. This thang is gonna be a flop.

But enough about that.

After I got back home, I ate TWO packs of Maggi noodles. (They are HEAVENLY noodles which are extremely tasty. And also unhealthy. My mom has banned them, but she lifts it off sometimes.) I didn't even have any breakfast. And my mom forgot to give me money to buy food.

We were planning to go to Dubai Mall, and I wanted to go there to get my book too. But while we were getting ready, my grandfather indirectly said that my sister was his favorite granddaughter. And that HURT. I wouldn't be as hurt as I was then if we were more than a few grandchildren. But there were only the 3 of us, and 2 of us were girls. When he said that, I just began sobbing and weeping. It was like a bullet which caused emotional sadness rather than physical pain. 

And when we got to Dubai mall, we went straight to Kinokuniya, and I got my book. Woo to the hoo! That was easy.

We walked A LOT. (That mall be HUUUUUUGGGE. Research it.) But I was fun. I expected it to end badly.

After we left, I got quite scared because Dubai mall is right next to Burj Khalifa (The tallest building in the world.), and I hate tall buildings. We gt REALLY close to it, and I was scared to look out of the window. 

Few also went to an Indian restaurant, which happens to be my favorite in Dubai because of its cozy and nice atmosphere. Also, the food is AMAZING. Well, most of it. 

We went there after quite some time, and the staff still recognized us, so that was nice. They even gave us some Indian sweets. We had our fill of food, and I was content. It was the best part of tonight. 

Finally, we went to Brands for Less to get some stuff for my gran. I just sat in the car passing the time.

Today went MUCH better than I expected, and I am happy.

I expect tomorrow to be better cuz I'm gonna meet Reem. Hope for fun times.

I should probably go now since I have to sleep.

Yes! Finished this before 12 AM!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

WOO! Tomorrow is the day!

I've got the STEAM volunteering program tomorrow, and I am FRACKING excited. 

I just can't shut up about this. I AM SO JOYOUS. Even though THE DAY is TOMORROW.

NOTHING can ruin this day. Except it has. 

This has been one of the happiest weeks of my life, since:

• School's out. (And I am coming out of my freshman year. And that was brutal. Academically.)
• My grandparents are here. 
• I got short listed for STEAM! (That's good enough.)
• And I dunno.

But all my parents have made me do is, cry. Just crying everyday. I've literally cried EVERYDAY since my grandparents have come here. 

All my mom has been doing is complaining about how I never do any work around the house, and my dad has also been really annoying, and it's like I am having an intervention all the time. 

But at least my grandfather is a cool guy and calmly explains. Like I mentioned yesterday, my grandmother and my mother are the same person. They nag. SO MUCH. Having one mother is bearable for me. Like when I am staying with my mom in Dubai, or when I stick to my grandmother and stay with her when I am in India. But when I stay with both of them, I get so CRANKY with them telling me what to do.

But yeah, that is what's been going on. I've been crying.

I was gonna update my other blog today, but I couldn't complete it.

So, I guess I'll do it later.

I am pumped for tomorrow, and I wanna get away from the house for a few hours and I wanna have a good time at school. So, I am gonna hit the bed early today, I wanna make sure everything is perfect. (But as luck would have it, it won't.)

I expect a good/bad story coming up for tomorrow's blog.

See ya!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

So, I'm sleepy.

I am getting pretty lazy now.

And with all this stuff going on, I don't think I'd be able to update. MAYBE.

My grandparents reached home late last night, and I was awake, but I didn't go meet them. I was too lazy to get out of bed.

I am usually really ecstatic to meet my grandparents cuz it always feel like it has been ages since I've seen them. Though when I meet my grandmother, I never feel like that. And I know why. Because she is the exact copy of her daughter, my mother. I never realize it till they are in the same room. 

They both nag, over exaggerate and have serious game addiction problems. (They will never leave their phones once they've started playing some nonsense game.)

Though I adore my grandfather. He's really smart, and he's so comforting and he's my greatest role model in my entire life. He's the one who inspired me to become a dentist. (Though I won't become one since I'm sure my dad won't pay for it. And I ain't that smart at science.) My grandfather is one of my favorite people in the whole world and he's much more fun than my grandmother.

Though my grandmother pampers me A LOT, buys me stuff and other stuff too.

The only reason she does that is because she has only 3 grandchildren. That is, me and my siblings. My mom does have another brother, but his marriage is this August.

Though I don't want a cousin. Probably because I'd get jealous. And I want my grandma to pamper me.

Well, enough about that, I actually gotta go.

On other news, I got selected for STEAM. Actually, short listed. But still, I'm going to school this Thursday for the orientation. I REALLY hope I am chosen. 

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Hell. School's out.

I am FREE.

Halle-BLEEPING-Lujah 

to ME!

I can't even express the joy I am feeling right now. True, I am gonna miss 9th grade. Well, not that much. But a little. Just a little.

But, now that my first academic year in high school is over, I can pretty much do whatever I want. No homework, no tests or anything related to school at all. For THREE weeks. Except for the results which will probably come out on the 28th of this month.

Though this is nothing compared to the O-level schools in Dubai. They have 2+ months full of no school work since their new academic year begins in September. 

This seems totally unreal right now, because I'd never thought I'd see the end of freshman year. It's crazy.
But for the next academic year, I'm planning to do more. I wanna excel in things academically and I wanna do more adventurous stuff. Well, not exactly 'adventurous'. For academic excellence, I'm making a list of things I wanna accomplish, so I can get an iMac, though I have to talk it through with my parents.
While for 'adventure', I'm planning on buying this book, '97 things to do before you finish high school'. It's a cool book with explanation of stuff to do. Though I don't think I'll be able to do ALL 97 because I'm not supposed to, or I can't. Like reading palms and stuff like that.
But, I want the next 3 years to be better.

I had my science exam today, and by far, it was THE WORST exam I've had this semester. It was DREADFUL. I barely knew any answers. I did better in Hindi than I did in Science. But I know I'll pass. I will.

In other news, STEAM begins this Thursday, and I really wanna get selected, and I'll be heartbroken if I don't. I'm also making a list of things I wanna learn this year, and many of them are tech related, and I hope to accomplish them too.

I don't really wanna sleep right now, even though its around 10:40 PM, but I have to, because I'll be babysitting a bunch of kids tomorrow. Not that it's getting me any money. 'Cuz it isn't. I have to take care of my two cousins (aged 8 and 3), and also 2 kids my aunt is supposed to babysit. I dunno how old they are. And also, my brother. But I agreed to it anyway because I am nice, also, because my mom and aunt are leaving them in my hands for a good cause. They are going to an Islamic class. So they're not making me babysit them for nothing.
I just hope these kids sleep for most of the time. 

If I can, I'll update my WordPress blog while I'm there. 

Man, I STILL am not over the fact that I don't have school anymore.

So, now I'm gonna go. 

Also, Looking for Alaska is a GREAT book till where I've read.

BYE! See ya!

Note: This is March 10th's post. Stupid blogger didn't publish my post.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Oh god. I BLEEPING HURT.

I did a LOT of work today.

And by that, I don't mean playing on the computer. I mean REAL work. I was cleaning out my book shelves/cupboard. And that was TIRING. WHY? Because I have BLEEPING 1000 books to sort out. Literally. It's morning, I cleaned out my cupboard, and found SO MANY papers. I'll reuse most of them, while I'll recycle the others. I is going green.

Also, my grandparents are coming today. Yay.

I also wanted to tell you something.

Around 11 PM, my dad forced me to call the flight query department or something (to improve my communication skills and some shite.), and I whined and complained, and then I finally called them. I answered their questions or whatever, and they told me that my grandparents' flight was at 11:13 PM. I heard that CLEARLY. 

I told this to my parents, and by 11:30, my parents had left. I continued on with my cleaning, and so an hour passed. My sister and I were wondering where they are, and so I called them. Turns out that the plane had just landed.  Dunno if there was a delay or I heard it wrong. But I already told my mum that it was day's fault since he forced me to call, if it was the latter.

That's it.

I'm VERY sleepy now, so I am gonna go away now.

Blogger be messed up. Very messed up. It ain't publishing my post.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

It's basically Saturday. But I can't post now.

Ughh. Why do I do this. 

But I have techinically done my post for Friday. Since the last post was dated as Friday.

I don't think I post later today though. WHY? Because I have to study. It is BLEEPING science. I HAVE to cram. 

Science is hard. And not to mention boring. I just want my exams to get over so I could get on with reading books. I have around 15 books lying around for reading. Actually, more than 15. I really want more books, but they are piling up. 

Anyway, I HAVE to go, because I HAVE to sleep.

I'll try to post a second post today, but I don't think it's likely since I'll be crying because I haven't really done much studying.

Thank goodness Exam Week is coming to an end.

Well, see ya.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Oh BLEEP. It's already past 12.

Well, I guess double post today.

I had Hindi today. It sucked. For me. I'll pass though. 

Though I just have ONE thing to worry about. Science. I have shitted up Science in every way possible this year. I dunno WHAT I am gonna do this time. ESPECIALLY for Physics. And the Biology diagrams. And Chemistry Mole concept. 

I gotta cram today. As in Friday.

I always look forward to Thursdays, but they usually turn out so crappy.

Today, I had my Hindi exam, and it was terrible. I also got my class photo. And I did the major mess up. I closed my eyes. Everything was perfect, but that flash was too much causing me to close my eyes. 

And remember STEAM? If you don't, check Wednesday's post. I think I mentioned it. The circular about that which I'd got was very vague. I had to tick certain options of my preferred areas of interest. Now, I had to volunteer for this program, so I thought that I should be familiar with these preferred areas of interest. I didn't know everything, so I only ticked down the boxes which included something I was familiar with. Like, Internet based learning, Social Media, Research, etc. But some girls were talking about this, and they said that I had to tick the options which I wanted to learn. And there were other stuff like, Photoshop (Which I am terrible at.), Movie making, audio/video editing, etc. If it is the latter, then I have shitted up. 'Cuz I really wanna learn that.

I just wanna get it though.

Moving on, this evening, my family was planning to go out for dinner. We happened to go to the mall, and I stayed at Borders. I had some money left with me, so I spent it all on Looking for Alaska and The Amanda Project. They are worth it. That was the only good part.

We wanted to eat meat for dinner, so we went to this restaurant, called, 'The Butcher Shop and Grill'. 

My dad had a steak, my mom had a chicken breast, my brother had chicken nuggets, and my sister and I had a grilled chicken. Unfortunately, none of us could finish everything we had on our plate. That meal was TOO HEAVY. Atleast 3 of us would need to share a plate. (But I thank God for giving me the opportunity to actually eat food. Because there are many people who live without food.)

And coming at that point, this morning, my dad called me to show me pictures of some poor Syrian refugees which had come in the paper. (He shows this to me so that I am thankful to God for giving me a home, food and money. Which I am. REALLY.) I don't need to see that. It's depressing, and I already know what goes on there, and I am thankful for what I have. The pictures had a headline, '1 million refugees in limbo'. Now, I was ready to go to school, and I know what is going on there, so I didn't wanna depress myself. But I did see that, and I saw the headline. Then, for my satirical entertainment, I did this:

(Continuing dialogue between me and my dad respectively.)

"Hey dad, what's limbo? Where is it?" 

"Yeah, it's in Syria, you see and the people are—" 

"No, it is not. Limbo isn't even a place. It just means the border of hell."

"Oh yeah, okay. They are in such a state—" 

I dunno what he said then. 

That was mean. I think. Maybe. Who knows? 

Well, it's already past 1 AM, so I better go now.

Check out my WordPress blog!

My OTHER blog!

Okay, now I am gonna go.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I am here.

And I have to go. Real fast.

It's almost 10 PM. And I have my Hindi exam tomorrow. I hate that subject. I am flunking this test. I was studying Hindi this morning, and then I just snapped. I was just like, "Chuck this. I got better things to do. I be wingin' it tomorrow."

Also, my Sims game is not updating. I was looking forward to playing it during my spring break. Guess I am not. I need to get this excuse of a computer fixed. Or probably and iMac. I also need a new printer. 

I saw all these ads for the treehouse site. (It's an educational site, teaching you internet stuff like HTML, CSS, Photoshop and all other tech stuff.) And I was pretty intrigued, so I decided to check it out. It's REALLY good. I started the first course, and then I came to know that I needed to join the website if I wanted to view more. It was like 25 dollars a month. It is actually quite reasonable, but I can't afford it. My pocket money hasn't really started up, and I already have plans for that money. And even if I got the money, I still wouldn't be able to use it since I don't have a credit card. And I don't think I'd be able to convince my dad to let me use his credit card for my own business. I could by paying him back the money, but I couldn't because I'd still have to convince him to give me his credit card. But that's a far too awkward conversation. 

I can never explain my interests to my parents. 

We have a 3 day program in our school during spring break with technology stuff, and I really wanna volunteer for that. I have mediocre tech skills. I think. I hope. 

And I had to get the acknowledgement form from my parents. That is pretty hard. Since I don't like sweet talking them. And they didn't get how important this was. This school FINALLY had something of my interests, and I REALLY wanted to go. 

They let me go though.

I also saw an Old Spice ad, and I hung my head in shame. I hate those ads. I am seeing one after a long time. 

Well, I be goin' away now. I haven't studied shit for Hindi.

I guess I'll pray I pass.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I am so BLEEPING jealous right now.

There is a fire burning inside of me.

And it's not good. 

I am an EXTREME fan of the Sims. It's one of my guilty pleasures. Though I can't buy those games because they are so damn expensive and rare in Dubai. I usually buy the discs, and since I only play these games on my PC, it is even MORE rare. 

I have to hunt for The Sims at times. 

So, due to this, I have the core game, Ambitions, Late Night and Showtime. I bought the Late Night and Showtime around last month, and I haven't even played it because it is TERRIBLY glitchy.

EVERY TIME I put in the game, my computer shuts down. It never shuts down anytime else. I even wanna get a new PC now. Probably an iMac. 

But other than that, I have been saving up to get the rest of the expansions. I REALLY want Generations and University Life, (Which releases tomorrow.) though I want the other one's almost as bad too. 

This obsession is quite bad, because it ends up with me getting frustrated, and sitting on my PC for long hours, sitting all slouched, (Since my chair's back broke, and I am already a sloucher.) and less concentration on EVERYTHING else. And it's expensive too. I think I have to save up around 400 AED, and I've just gotten up to 82 dirhams. But my parents have agreed to begin my pocket money on my 15th birthday this June, so, that'll probably speed up the process.

But I am getting terribly jealous of TheSimSupply dude who got the University Life before release. Lucky dude. But he's a WAAAAAAAY hardcore gamer than I am, so, he must have his ways of getting his games. Probably by buying it. 

Which I am too broke to do. 

Well, I have my English exam tomorrow, and I REALLY wanna do well, so I better go study. 

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

I am so darn hungry. EXAM WEEK.

And my mom has made AMAZING food.

Which is OBVIOUSLY not for me.  It's for some guests who've come to our house.

Why does she make good food only when we have guests over?

Humph.

Anyway, I had my Math test today, and it was REALLY good. I expect ATLEAST a 65 out of 90. I could've scored a 75 if I'd studied a bit more. But I didn't. But it was better than I expected, and I knew quite a number of answers.

So, THAT was good. 

But, I don't have much more to say. I have to study shit now

Bye.

Me going.

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.

Okay, I don't see this working out. For the week.

Really. I am really studying this time.

And I find it quite hard to post with all this studying. I can't guarantee that I'll be posting everyday this week, but I'll TRY. I MIGHT be able to work out alternate day blogs OR maybe I will blog everyday. I dunno. 

I don't even think anybody cares. 

But I really got thinking today. About my grades. I am not that good of a student, and I have been taking my studies REALLY lightly these past few weeks.

And I wanna pass. I don't wanna repeat my freshman year. 

Everyone's gonna tell me to try harder, and study, but I CAN'T. I NEED someone to study WITH. These are the times I wish I had a twin.

I didn't do much today, I had a 3 hour tutoring session this morning, and when I came home, I realized that my mom had taken away my iPad and iPod. That had me pissed.

Later, I listened to some music. That calmed my nerves.

My parents have been going on about how I will lose my cool if I don't stop using the computer. I dunno why they're telling this to me NOW. Why not MUCH earlier? It's weird seeing them telling me to study. But they only do this during the exams. Not anytime else. And it annoys me.

Also, I have been watching some One Tree Hill lately. I have reached till episode 12 of the first season. 

I don't really watch dramas, but I really like this one. 

But since it is a drama, I have to expect and accept somebody's demise. And *SPOILER ALERT* (If anybody has just started watching and doesn't want spoilers) I know that Lucas and Peyton are gonna leave the show around the 7th season. And that Nathan isn't gonna be there half of the last season.

And I already know most of the story. Well, storylines. And I have to expect some sadness. I don't like sadness. That's one reason I don't wanna continue watching the show. But I will anyway. Hope for the best.

Man, I really like Nathan and Haley as a couple. They are my favorites.

And I don' think even half of you know what I am talking about.

But, now I gotta go. I got Math tomorrow.

All the best to me!

Whatever.

-Sam Frank.